Sunday, December 22, 2013

Moonshine (Distillation of Consciousness and the Dharma of Duck Dynasty)

Distillation is a process that can be used to break down a liquid substance to a base. Distillation is how people make whiskey, and how scientists break down chemicals. This process has been around for thousands of years, ironically the first moonshiner in the United States was George Washington who was also a Freemason. Freemasonry was based upon Western mysticism which included alchemy. Alchemy is the process of using Mercury, salt and water to create gold by breaking down each substance and trying to get them to intermingle with the others. The idea of alchemy can be found throughout many cultures such as Egyptian, Chinese, European and probably a few others that I’m not even aware of. So it is no surprise Freemasons like George Washington would be down with making some moonshine. So what does this have to do with consciousness, and duck Dynasty? Well it has a lot to do with consciousness and very little to do with Duck Dynasty. However, I do have something to say about Phil Robinson’s comments that I’ll mention at the end of this blog post. I could be lying just so you keep reading. Either way you’ll have to read entire post to find out.

So what is the distillation of consciousness, and why do it? The answer is simple because the awareness that everybody experiences is a great mystery. Even with all the tools that science has created we still don’t know anything about awareness. Is awareness energy? Is awareness a soul? Does it die with our body? Does it continue on after the body dies? Does it return to an infinite sea of consciousness, like a drop of water returning to the ocean? The truth is we don’t know, so why not approach this question the same way science would? That would be to distill consciousness all the way down to its basic purist element. The most popular methodology of distilling one’s consciousness that is commonly used is meditation.

We sit still for a long period of time without any distractions; until all we are left with is our awareness. Most of the time the mind is busy with discriminating thoughts, such as I like this I don’t like that, or oh fuck I forgot to pay the rent. Mind is always thinking and the harder we tried to stop it, the more active it becomes. So therefore, one of the most important steps to meditation is just learning sit with whatever’s present in the moment rather than fight the mind, just watch it without engaging with the thoughts that arise or judging them. At some point we will catch ourselves thinking about this or that, the trick here is not to beat ourselves up but simply just come back to home base which is usually our breath. What happens over a period of time is the mind slows down, and we find gaps between thoughts. It is in these gaps really see a glimpse of what our true awareness is like. It is only through this direct experience, that we were able to explore consciousness. Meditation gives us the opportunity to see what awareness looks like without the impurities of our own thoughts. Another form of meditation is simply being fully engaged in the present moment. For example while playing guitar there is no separation between me and the music I am playing, a lot of the time I am only playing for what seems like five minutes but when I look at the clock I discovered an hour has passed because so I am so fully engaged in what I was doing. This is something that we all experience without even trying. And if we are trying to experience it, the effort itself becomes a roadblock.

When we distill consciousness by letting the impurities filter themselves out we are left with is pure awareness. What I find most profound about this is my pure awareness is no different than somebody else’s pure awareness. The only thing that separates us is the thinking mind. The Dalai Lama and Hitler both share the same pure awareness. It is almost impossible for us to conceive this because we cannot grasp the mind with the mind. However, if my awareness is the same as someone else’s and whatever I do to them, I am also doing to myself. This is a great foundation for the golden rule to do onto others as you would want them to do unto you. When we are aware that there is no separation the golden rule becomes almost natural. It is like the old Buddhist analogy there is one moon in the sky in one thousand bowls of water reflecting the moon. Now that is what I call moonshine. It all the same moon.

The only reason I included Duck Dynasty in the title of my post is because rednecks and moonshine go together and so I get ranked higher in Google. As for Phil Robinson’s comments in GQ magazine about homosexuality, that his quote from the Bible. All I can say is that he’s never slapped a hand full of Crisco in a man’s ass and slid into the home base so doesn’t know is talking about, if you know what mean.

Thanks for reading
El Dhamarado

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Don't Piss in the Net

I have just finished a course in Huayan Buddhism. Huayan is Chinese Chaan School of philosophy founded by Fazang a chaan patriarch. The book for the course was Hua-yen Buddhism by Frances Cook. This book covers the philosophy aspect of Huayan in great detail and from many angles. However it is very dry, and does not offer much insight into the application of Huayan philosophy in everyday life. When I write a blog post I like to use everyday situations as my topic. I am going to attempt take some what I learned from Cooks book and give some real everyday examples and possible uses for this ancient Chinese philosophy.

The heart of Huayan is interconnectedness which simply implies that one thing cannot exist without the all the causes on conditions of everything else. What we consider today as string theory in quantum physics or movie goers know it as the butterfly effect. Huayan uses the analogy of a net where each connecting point has a jewel and each jewel reflects all the other jewels on the net. For example if I were to through a cigarette butt into the net each jewel would add to its reflection a cigarette butt. Therefore the butt becomes a part of every jewel on the net, or if I toss a flower in the net, obviously the flower would be better than a cigarette butt especially when we take into consideration that it becomes a part of everything in whole net. The meaning of this is everything we do and say in our daily life becomes a part of the whole net eco-system. Therefore if I treat everyone, like crap it will cause suffering to others in ways that I will not be aware of. Furthermore the same goes for how we treat the environment everything we do has an effect in the eco-system. Everything is connect and there is no escape from that fact.

For example my neighbor takes my parking spot on the street; I get mad and piss in his bushes.. A seemingly harmless act, however my neighbor has a dog and I soiled his domain. The dog gets upset and disrupts my neighbor’s family. Let’s say my neighbor Harry can’t sleep because of the commotion caused by the dog, harry happens to be a brain surgeon. Harry goes to work the next day tired and messes up a surgery. The effects go on forever because I pissed in his yard.

There is good news here part of this eco-system is impermanence. Nothing stays the same all it takes is for one thing to change and whole cycle is interrupted and a new one begins. So rather than pissing in somebody’s yard, if we plant flowers infinite flowers will bloom throughout the entire net of existence.

Though this philosophy is over a thousand years old it is more important now than ever to be aware of how we affect each other and the environment. None of us will ever be perfect but awareness of how we affect each other and the world around us can make a huge difference. In today’s world of technology and social networking we are more connected now that ever. As result our influence goes way beyond family and co-workers. The revolutions in Syria and Egypt are great examples of how a few people had an influence over many, causing regime changes. Sometimes words don’t even have to be spoken, or action taken. Just being can change the way things are. Doing nothing may have more profound result than any other action the domino effect stops when either there are no more dominos to fall, or at the one domino that simply won’t budge and refuse to fall with rest and sits still among the surrounding chaos. We can sit still like the Buddha to attain enlightenment so that light of Buddhahood can shine and become a part of every jewel in the net.

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El Dharmarado

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Lost my Cushion, Lost my Mind

Lost my Cushion, lost my Mind

Last week we started a new meditation group at the Unitarian Church in Princeton, I brought my cushion from home not knowing we had them already. As you can already guess by the title of this post I left my cushion. I didn’t realize it until I was home. Out of nowhere I became incredibly angry the kind of anger that made me want to break stuff. Then there was this feeling of my heart cracking open with feelings of intense sadness and loss. I thought I had finally lost my shit feeling so upset over a damn cushion that is easily replaceable. However what I was feeling had nothing to do with the cushion, I had found out my Mother has cancer a couple of weeks before. I had been so busy with work and making sure things where being taken care of that I hadn’t processed any feelings, and losing my cushion was the trigger.

As I was having these feeling come up there was also a struggle one side of me thought “Huh, this is not very Zen of me to be feeling this way everything is empty and I should not be so attached” the other thought was “This is real and I should allow my feelings to flow naturally have the experience then let it go”. Which thought is truly Zen? Both questions come from a thinking mind. The don’t know mind only experiences without judgment. I am sure I am not the only person who has questioned how I am supposed to feel or react as a Buddhist. The Buddha taught the four noble truths.

1. The truth of dukkha (suffering, anxiety, unsatisfactoriness)
2. The truth of the origin of dukkha
3. The truth of the cessation of dukkha
4. The truth of the path leading to the cessation of dukkha

The confusion for me comes from what this cessation of dukkha? Is it bliss and we never have to feel dukkha ever again? Or is it simply acceptance and not clinging to experience? This is an easy place to get stuck and say screw this Buddhism shit it doesn’t make sense. I don’t know the answer. Don’t know is the best answer I have heard so far. That is what I like about Zen is that don’t know can be the correct answer. Rather than endless debates and intellectual fodder there is the simple “don’t know” It has been about two weeks since I lost my cushion and my mind. Thankfully I got my cushion back, but not my mind. I don’t want to worry about if what I am feeling is the correct Zen way to feel, because it just causes more suffering. When I stay open and feel whatever it is not judge it and let it go that seems to work better for me. I don’t know is this is cessation of dukkha, but it is surly less dukkha than I would experience if I try to rationalize everything.

Another side of this is attachment to spiritual practice, philosophy, theology ect.. Because as long as I am a Buddhist then there is something other than Buddhist which contradicts what the Buddha was teaching to begin with. Recently I took a class about Huang Po, and he said “There is no Buddha save all beings, and no beings to save” He cuts the chord ends all the thought about being a Buddhist if there is no Buddha then there is no Buddhist there is only mind and mind is Buddha. So by asking “is this the way a Buddhist should feel?” Created a “me” and other when in reality everything is interdependent and not separate. It is funny how the mind will twist things around so there is always a greater than, and less than. Then my next thought is “well at least I notice this thinking so I am more aware” Which is funny because I said there is no more or less. I all that really need to be done is to lose the thinking mind and keep the cushion.

Thanks for reading
El Dharmarodo

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Chuck Norris doesn't sleep, he waits!

Chuck Norris doesn’t sleep, he waits!

A few years ago a friend of mine was telling about a problem he was having with a co-worker that was annoying him. I couldn’t think of anything to say to him at the time except to wait. Then I told him the old Chuck Norris joke “Chuck Norris doesn’t sleep, he waits.” About a year later well after I had forgotten about his problem he thanked me and said that the Chuck Norris joke worked, every time his co-worker pissed him off, he would tell himself the Chuck joke and then he would laugh and let it go. Then after some time passed this co-worker started being nice to him and they became friends.

One of my favorite quotes from the Tao Te Ching is “The Tao never "acts" Yet nothing is left undone.” So much is happening all the time, billions of people are doing different things at any given moment, thousands of cars are passing my house, the sun comes up, the moon goes down, the earth is spinning, planets are rolling around the sun, an inconceivable number of galaxy’s are floating around in the universe etc.. All that is happening right now as you are reading this blog. Fish are being fish, dogs are being dogs, lions are being lions, and people are being people. All of this is happening on its own without any struggle it is all a naturally emanating.

Emanating from where and from what? Buddhism makes us seek this answer out for ourselves. This usually begins with sitting still and calming the mind. In the beginning it is like waiting at least for me. It was like being stuck in traffic on the NJ turnpike all there is to do is sit and wait turning up the radio doesn’t help, blowing the horn doesn’t help, smoking a pack of cigarettes doesn’t help just wait and things move on their own in their own time.

The same is true with meditation, trying to become enlightened is like blowing your horn while stuck in traffic at exit 8A on the NJ TP. It only makes more of out a situation that just is what it is. When we let go of all the horn blowing, turn off the radio, give up completely, even give up on the idea ever getting home, then… well that’s is it. No struggle necessary, and there was never a reason to struggle to begin with. Everything is perfect in this moment as it is.

“Chuck Norris doesn’t sleep”, stay aware of what is happening in this moment “wait” there is no need to struggle to just wait. Sometimes the best meditation advice I can give, and the best living life advice I can give is “Chuck Norris doesn’t sleep, he waits”

Here is quote from my favorite poem Desiderata by Max Ehrmann that says it way better than I ever can.

“ And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.”

Thanks For reading
El Dharmarado

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Dancing with Death

Dancing with Death I had to go to a funeral the other day. I didn’t know the guy very well but I had to go. He was 59 and died in a bad car wreck. I was an open coffin event, his body looked flat like it was run over by a steam roller, and his face looked like they pieced it together with clay. As I approached the coffin the two guys kneeling got and shook the coffin hard, so hard that the corpses head went back and forth like a bobble head. I am guessing his head was not connected to rest of him, when I saw this I turned around and B-lined for the back to room.

Next was the service with a catholic priest whose whole shtick was “only through Christ can we enter the kingdom of heaven”. My reaction was like WTF, that is a mean thing to say especially to non-Christians. Then the real kicker was when his daughters spoke they were completely devastated their pain was powerful that the whole room shook with their anguish. It was really heart breaking to see people in so much pain I had to hold back crying myself because their feelings had so much power.

There are two reasons I am telling this story one, I don’t like dogma and two I thought about the story of Siddhartha and how he saw suffering and wanted to alleviate it. That story of Siddhartha doesn’t capture the feeling of pain that was being felt at this funeral. It is more cerebral or logical, like Spocks version of shallow emotion. I am not saying he didn’t feel what I felt, I think what I was feeling is exactly the same that the Buddha felt and that drove him seek the dharma. I have to say reading about it and actually feeling are not the same, and can become intellectualized rather than a heartfelt experience.

His answer to suffering is the eightfold path. I have a funny feeling that if had I walked up to his daughters and gave them a sermon on the eightfold path and impermanence wouldn’t have been helpful at all. Just like the priest saying that Christ is the way probably was not helpful either. I think the only thing can that help someone in that kind of pain is to have an open heart, share the pain, and to be genuine, empathetic, open and present. I am not saying that Buddhism or Christianity is bad, but using the dogma can be a way to shelter ourselves from having a genuine experience and expressing kindness. It can be a way of separating ourselves from the interconnectivity of life, and those we share it with.

At the end of the funeral they played Monty Pythons Always look on the bright side of life. Life is nothing to lose your head about that is for sure.

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow
Forget about your sin
Give the audience a grin
Enjoy it, it's your last chance anyhow

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El Dharmarado

Monday, July 22, 2013

The Way Seeking Mind

I don't know who this guy is but he sure can lay down a Dharma talk like no other!!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

The Dharma of Sharknado

Some of you are probably aware of latest SyFy movie Sharknado that blew up the internet recently. While I was watching this cinematic epic I realized that there are some profound teachings that can be taught by using the analogy of a Sharknado. So here is my take on the Dharma of Sharknado

The tornado is like the mind that is always spinning and fighting to stop the mind from doing what it is created to do is like throwing a school of sharks into to the tornado, from there it will leave a trail of carnage everywhere it goes.

This is what happens during meditation when a meditator struggles with his or her mind to stop the thoughts. The energy we use to struggle against them is throwing sharks into a tornado. The trick is not to trying to stop the mind but to stop and let the mind be the mind, and let the thought be just thoughts, and not to become attached to them. When the meditator sees a thought then begins to build a story around the thought that is like feeding the shark, and trying to stop the thoughts completely is creating more sharks.

Just watch to tornado spin because that is what a tornado does. It will go where it wants but we don’t need to do anything else. Just watch the mind spin because that is what it does, when we stop to just watch we may notice some gaps in wind of the mind in those gaps there is a calm quit space, like being in the eye of a storm, that is the clear mind, the Buddha mind.

I know this is not my best blog post ever but whatever I wrote it during commercials while watching Sharknado and it is a way to take advantage of the buzz on the internet.

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El Dharmarado Tamer of the Sharknado

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

The Bus to Enlightenment

The following is an interview my teacher and friend the Venerable Doshim Dharma.  I would like to thank him for taking the time to share some of his personal insights into Korean Buddhism, and his dream of starting the first mobile mediation center in the western hemisphere the Buddha bus

What first brought you to the practice of Zen?
Suffering, the general unhappiness that the Buddha identified as the mark of life--dukkha.

How did you find the right teacher?
I've had several teachers, but I realized that Seonsanim Paul Lynch was the right teacher for me because he never tried to impose and one form of practice on me. He trusted the teaching process and me as a student. I felt a genuine respect from him.

Why have you chosen Kwan Um rather than Soto or Rinzai  Zen?
I've practiced in Soto and a Soto-koan hybrid known as Sanbo Kyodan before I met Zen Master Seung Sahn's approach. There is just a genuine directness about his approach, his koan method, that can wake you up instantaneously. 

What motivated you to become a Zen Teacher?
Perhaps it's because I'm a classroom teacher, which affects the way you look at life, literature, and situations. Asking myself, "How could I teach that?" comes naturally. I also have a huge appreciation for the gift of the Buddhadharma, and consider it almost a tragedy not to share it. The Dharma has helped me so much, so becoming a teacher and devoting my life to the Dharma is like paying the debt back. It's the least I can do. 

Have there been any unexpected surprises or challenges to being a Zen teacher?
 Every week there's a new challenge. Between delivering Dharma talks, meeting new students, engaging students in interview, and teaching koans, a teacher has his or her hands full. It's really a dynamic and exciting responsibility. 

Where did the idea for the Buddha bus come from?
 I've been mulling over opening a Zen Center for a couple of years now, but it's really an enormous undertaking--utility bills, repairs, renovations, etc. It all adds up, and makes a sangha beholden to the almight dollar. So my father-in-law thought up the Buddha Bus. And the rest is history!

Why a mobile Zen center rather a stationary one?
 There are many advantages to a Buddha Bus versus a Zen Center. It's more reasonably priced, can move to meet people from around all of central New Jersey, and doesn't require the financial commitment to upkeep it. Plus, it's damn cool!

Do you have a target demographic that the Buddha bus is geared towards?
 Anyone who can meet us in a parking lot or park.

Can you describe to me this vision that you have for the Buddha bus?
Basically a mobile Dharma Center that can allows us, the sangha, to bring the Buddha's teachings others. Inside, we will sit and meditate, listen to a Dharma talk, and maybe, if space allows, practice walking meditation.

Has anyone told you they think your crazy for starting the Buddha bus project?
 At first, people give me a strange look, but as times passes and the idea settles, it grows on them.

Once you have the first Buddha bus on the road do you have any plans for a fleet of Buddha buses?
 Not yet, but that would be great. Maybe we could convert a bus into an RV with beds, bathroom, and kitchen. This way we could do retreats with the two buses together--one for meditation, the other for sleeping. 

I would like to give you a koan "Why did the Buddha bus go from the east coast to west?
"Beep beep!" Or better yet, "Hop on board!"

Is there anything else that you would like to add?
 Wake up and then save all sentient beings.

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El Dharmarado

Saturday, June 29, 2013

A Man Without a Sangha

When I first started practicing I found a group that met twice a week. It was my first real experience with working with a group. I would go twice a week for a couple of years. I made few new friends and had the opportunity to learn from a teacher who had more than 40 years’ experience. It was an excellent experience I was very grateful for it. However sometimes I still felt like I was on the outside looking in but I stuck with it because I was learning so much from them. I also felt as if a lot of people who were attending were trying to fix themselves and others were collecting knowledge, and for some it was even fashionable. I felt that those people missed the point of what the Buddha taught. Yet they needed to be there maybe even more than me.

While this was going on for them, I was finding out that I am fine the way I am, and by meditating I learned that life is an experience, and there is no separation from the experience and my perception of it. My focus was being present and just learning to observe my thoughts without judging or becoming attached to them. For me this was an amazing revelation while for others it was not enough they continued to practice but still looking for something. I understand that seekers need the practice and to learn the teaching more so they can understand. I felt I had moved in a different direction than the rest of the flock, I was a man who could see and feel freedom. I was a man without a Sangha!

I didn’t need a Sangha, or teachers, because we are all each and every one of us already completely free and perfect. Then one day the Sangha went on retreat and did not hold its regular practice. That week I realized that all living things are my Sangha, not just a small click Buddha hippies. I also realize that life or the experience of life is the teacher not a person, not even the Buddha. That was the moment that I really took refuge, refuge in the wonder of life, and the opportunity to have this experience, and learning to let go so the next moment can be…. Well as Kurt Vonnegut would say “So it goes.” .

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El Dharmarado

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Don’t call me Bodhisattva

A couple of weeks I was writing a blog post in my head about generosity and the Bodhisattva way, yet every time I sat down to write it I had a feeling that I was missing a very important point and I could not figure out what it was. Then one day I was thinking about it, and it hit me being generous is not necessarily the way a Bodhisattva rolls. For example one day I brought some Oreos to our Saturday meditation retreat and the teacher said “Ah you are a true Bodhisattva for bringing these cookies”. It is easy to see the happiness that these cookies brought the Sangha and it is easy to like somebody who gives you a free Oreo cookie. But how you cultivate that same generous loving quality towards the burglar who robbed your house while you were away? Or the guy to smashed into your car in the mall parking lot and took off without leaving a note? How about the boss that rides your ass eight hours a day so by end of your shift you feel like a broken human being? A cookie doesn’t make all that suffering go away!

For me this is where the bitter sweet truth hides in the dark recesses of my own unclean actions of the past and present. I am going to throughout a few examples from my own life. How do accept that the guy who robbed my house has the same Buddha nature as me? I think back to when I was a kid I would steal just about anything just for kicks. Most of all I would always steal my brothers weed, he was a Bodhisattva for not beating my ass for it. How do relate to the person who hit my car and took off? When I was twenty years old I totaled a VW Bug in a parking lot, I looked around nobody saw me so I bolted. I can connect with that “Oh shit, I really fucked up this time. How do I get of it?”. There is the asshole boss who won’t quit. It is hard to admit this but I am an asshole too. For example the other night my girlfriend wanted me to take her to the food store at 10:30 at night, I was not like “yes dear” I was like “Fuck this shit, I want to sleep”.

So don’t call me Bodhisattva I am a liar, thief, and asshole. It is because I see these traits in myself it allows me connect with others who have the same human nature as I do, and according the Buddha we all have Buddha nature as well. I think there is a paradox in this whole idea of a bodhisattva. When you forgive yourself, you automatically forgive others who have done the same thing to you, and vice versa when you forgive others you are also forgiving yourself. I think this is what makes a Bodhisattva different from a saint and opens the door for true unconditional compassion and love.

You can call me Liar, you can call me a thief, you can call me asshole, but don’t call me Bodhisattva because are all Buddha’s. 

Thanks for reading, El Dharmarodo

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Stop nagging at me!

Today I was thinking back to when I had my first Zen experience. It was long before I knew anything about Zen or Buddhism. I was in my mid-twenties my girlfriend dumped me because she banging Steven Tyler, of all people. I was crushed and in some adolescent way I way I made things out to be much worse than they really were. My life was over. I wanted die. I was going to suffer for eternity blah blah blah… T Until one day I hanging out with my friend Ted spewing all of this emotional crud and he said to me “immerse yourself in the pain, let it wash over you, just feel it completely” I was shocked because everyone else was trying to keep me distracted from what I was feeling. That night I went home sat down ready for battle with this T-Rex sized emotion, I was prepared to be swallowed and torn apart by emotional pain. I took a deep breath opened myself up as much as could and there it was. That T-Rex was just a nagging flea of insecurity. It was not even close to what I expected. As soon as I honed in on that realization I was cool. I was even a bit annoyed with myself for allowing my emotions to get so out of hand.

Now every time I hear a Dharma talk about staying in the moment and experiencing emotions to their fullest I think back to that situation. I know now that those huge over powering emotions turn out to be nothing more than some nagging little thing, which snow balls.

I will admit even though I am armed with this knowledge a lot of time my emotions seem to grow out of control no matter how hard I try to open myself up to them. It is the ‘trying” that seems to get in the way. The trick is do this without effort, simply stay with moment as it is, that is all then let it go and allow the next moment to arise.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Bitch Slap Your Fear

What is fear? We don’t want to lose something or want to avoid something unpleasant that could possibly happen in the future. It all based on possible future outcomes that we try to predict in our minds before they actually occur. It is natural for self-preservation, yet when that natural instinct takes over it can fill us with fear and dread. I can spend so much time worrying about losing my job, or my home because of not having enough money. Fear itself is just a story, and even money is a man-made construct based on nothing. The fear feels so real even when an event is not happening in the moment just in the mind.

Nothing in this world last forever, money, cars, houses, jobs, and even loved ones all disappear eventually. Furthermore even each of us will vanish from this existence. Much of our suffering is the result of trying to cling to very things that we know are going vanish. Impermanence is the natural way of the world we exist in. How do we avoid fear?

When fear arises simply bitch slap it back down into the void where it came from. I have two tools which I use slap my fear down. First, the knowledge and acceptance of impermanence, try to stay open to changes and try less to control an outcome. Try to stay open to feeling things that are not so pleasant sadness, anger, loneliness are all a part of life. The key is to feel them fully then let them go. Being able to let go is much more useful than grasping and trying keep things the same. Letting go and being open to whatever comes next is true freedom. Second, we all have everything we need in this moment, and this moment is perfect as it is. Every moment is fully complete as it is and does not need anything added to it. Let go of the past, everything is perfect in this moment and stay open to the future.

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Fucking 'A'

Have you ever reached that point of exhaustion when there is nothing left to say or do, and all there is left is to surrender to the moment? You a deep breath and exhale while sitting back and say fucking 'A'! In that very moment of absolute surrender there is a deep feeling freedom and peace. When we simply give up stop judging,and trying to change things all there is left is fucking 'A'. What does the the 'A' stand for? I always thought it stood for "ass". When I Googled the topic I discovered this question has been a matter of debate ever since the phrase entered the English language. The one explanation that I found most feasible is "affirmative" in the military affirmative was used to mean that you understood the orders given. It evolved to fucking affirmative, from there it was shorten to fucking 'A'. The word "affirmative" means expressing agreement. How marvelous it is that the term fucking 'A' is used in situations of surrender and the 'A' may have came from a word that means "in agreement with".

Fucking 'A' has become a way of life for me. It gives me the strength to deal with any situation. That strength is a result of surrender, that allows the mind to see things as they are rather than what the ego wants. It has taught me how much more beneficial it is to "let go" rather than holding on to things, and grasping for more. Life in this moment is always perfect just as it is. Fucking 'A' captures the spiritual essence of freedom and love for others because when there is an acceptance that everything is perfect as it is, even in the most difficult situations as a result there is no conflict and no reason to be pissed off. Imagine a world a world where nobody is pissed off! What would we do? Perhaps, we would just take care of our basic needs, and enjoy life rather than struggle Fucking 'A'.

Thanks for reading
El Dharmarado